Sunday, June 28, 2009'♥
a pleasant surprise for yesterday.
i got back my ballet results that i had on 30th may.
i didn't expect it, as i knew that i made tons of mistakes as compared to my the other 2 partners who had went in together with me. my mind was like FREAK OUT! i overslept then i was quite stiff that day, worst still, i didn't have my breakfast but only chocolate bar for energy. i feel that i have more to conquer now, but i just don't know WHATS WRONG WITH MY BODY. jumping for piles i felt sharp pains sometimes at my knees. then the stupid bunion injury on my right foot caused me not to go on pointe that well. and ya, i noticed my turn out are getting bad to worst. much more limited than last time. my flexibility is much more worst.. sigh. sorry for the whine.
no matter what, i will train it back. this is a promise to myself. and i won't try to skip classes unless is necessary.
6 more days to a massive change.
Labels: rants
Monday, February 23, 2009'♥
i have no chemistry with chemistry.
all of sudden, i stood up from my chair. headed towards the whiteboard, i looked up. stared right straight into her eyes, "YOU'RE FIRED!" i screamed...
However, it will never happen in this reality society. i am just having my hallucination. but simply, i just can't stand it, the anger is building up within me. i just need to release the pressure built inside me...
it made my day worst that, SYF costume? wth? can i just get out and for goodness sake and concentrate my academics. i just hate it when we were asked to perform, and yet excel in academics? i am sorry to say, i am not a natural born talent to handle multi tasks. if you want me to do it, why not you show us first? are those money taken out from our "piggy" is needed? i doubt so, i seriously found nothing useful by asking us to buy those stuffs. and thats my stand.
i am more delightful to get over and done with the stupid O levels and get out of the school. thats me. the environment just simply don't suit my personality. just like outer surface, no matter how good, the core is corroding and corrupted.
yes and i have all these to say.
Labels: rants
Tuesday, February 17, 2009'♥
let me just briefly summarise my past events.
1. i got back my last year september results. i was delighted, but my teacher was disappointed.
2. thanks for those valentine day chocolates, cards. really sweet.
3. watched the breakout by the korean performers. it was really entertaining and tickets were sold out.
I AM FRUSTRATED. I HATE IT.everything just seemed to be bombarding into my brain. recklessly doing things with a subconscious mind. knee injury, back aching abnormally. it isn't going smooth although no MAJOR thing happened.
my commitments, with my best, might even turned out disappointing. all of sudden, i felt the whole world collapsing, rather be doing in volunteer work, get out of the "civil war". yes, i am desperate. i want freedom. someone just set me free. please.
Labels: rants
Sunday, January 11, 2009'♥
CAN'T I JUST GET A GRIP OF MYSELF!
i have a question to ask my computer. 'WHY ARE YOU SO ATTRACTIVE? Until i can't stop sticking next to you..' with you, i cant do anything.
and here i am sticking to you blogging now.
i was kind of upset about my watch. really NOT used to it when not wearing it to school, just felt something was missing. but anyway, IT HAS BEEN DISCHARGED from the hospital.
09? till now i am like living in my past. can't stop writing XX Jan 08 and either is liquid it or correction tape it or even write over it, i just not used to a new year.
really have to bash myself up for not controlling myself. for not doing things. not having a strong mental state to do homework. there's so much. really hard to change.
whatever the reason is, i am trying my very best not to slack that much. because, i want it A CHANGE IN 2009. Let this worst year to get over and done with.. the next worst year will begin on 2011. so i shall fight this, and next concentrate the next battle. is a MUST no longer a maybe.
really getting a grip of myself...
Labels: rants
Wednesday, January 07, 2009'♥
is just the 4th day of school? and guess what? i am like a dead meat person. mentally and physically exhausted. i thought at most we just concentrate the SYF is enough stress. and came up with 19 January another performance. and then another one in march. gosh really can die from it.
we got back almost the same teachers, however, there are some i am still unhappy. whatever.. is my last year in this school, just get over and done with. they better push me hard.
i couldn't believe after dance yesterday, after bathing and dinner, and BOOM! slept on my bed sharp on 8.30pm till today morning.
it seriously concludes that SEC 4 lives are tiring.
more headache matters came up just the school start. partly from dance and council. but mostly from dance. is really a matter of time to solve it, talking about time? really required it badly...
i kind of miss my older brother, cause he went for NS service. another person lost to turn to for maths and science questions =.=
3 more months to step down.
5 more months to extreme training of O levels.
9 more months to O levels.
10 more months to HOLIDAYS!
Labels: rants
Sunday, June 08, 2008'♥
today had been a great day. except had 2 small blister on my left foot.. and one of it, the skin peeled off. is painful...
today was a great day to have food! and i am bound to gain some weight. after dancing so much past 2 weeks. which is like from monday to saturday.
well in the afternoon, ate one bowl of beancurd near kovan district.
for dinner, i ate swensen at compass point. 1 main dish and 1 big bowl of ice cream! sinful!!
still feeling quite full after the meal.
this whole week doesn't have dance, so i plan to go down and jog? nahs. i won't do that. i will try and finish up my homework! and starting to have a maths tution.
after that swensen meal, i am having sore throat. oh no, oh no. after flu, now sore throat. =.=
Labels: rants, sick
Wednesday, June 04, 2008'♥
its been long since i last posted.
the first week was enjoyable. i simply loved singapore summer school. we did really well for the night performance for saturday. through summer school, i know where i stand, and it motivates me to do better. i simply cant forget the apologize contemporary song and also the jazz dance!
of course, congratulate grace for winning the level 5 award. amanda for gold award. serene and Stephanie for silver. i got silver too(:
as some people know that i hurt my spine(tail bone) i cant really do those movements a lot especially using the back. but is recovering(:
there is still a lot more homework to get it through. argh!
geraldine, choonling and le ning came to my house to do the maths project. indeed they had enjoyed with food, music. hahas. well we done halfway through! applause. applause.
now i have to do the rest of the other projects. like music dread. and doing chinese project with geraldine tomorrow again. friday dance till 2pm. doesn't seem like having a break at all.
there is still a lot stuffs for me to settle! ahh!! so byes!
Labels: random, rants, Singapore Summer School
Monday, May 12, 2008'♥
WHEE!!! tomorrow would be the LAST and FINAL paper for mid years.
tomorrow also partying!! sad seniors are leaving~~ hais...
good news, end of mid years = coming of june holidays.
bad news, nearing O levels =.=
chemistry turns out fine, except for my careless mistakes. ARGH! i hate myself. hope that thursday able to get back most of the papers. *fingers crossed*
let me talk about today.
everyone was frantic as usual... then we arrived as classroom. we always predicted that mr lee or mr rahim will be coming in.. but this time round, 2 females teacher came in. i remembered clearly it was 7.35am.
One malay, One Chinese. the chinese one is irritating. i mean no offence, but the whole class simply just don't like her.
it was 7.35am, and she asked us to place our bags infront. as in *isn't it still early? we ought to have the rights to revise even more.* and she started screaming her head off, asking us to obey. everyone was quite reluctant, and still holding the green chemistry file. the weirdest thing she did was, she wanted to teach us how to shade OAS. that is the dumbest thing.
for goodness sake, we have been shading OAS since P3? 6 to 7 years? and still want to teach us. and read out all the instructions. then she asked how come only 42 people present? shouldn't it be 43? -there is 1 guy in my class who doesn't bother to come to school, and therefore, he seems to be non-existence to us-, we told her the truth, and she didn't believe =.= she said she couldn't see any empty seat, and it is a prank? damn it. then we told her looked behind and pointed the empty top left hand corner and said, there!*she was in shocked to see the empty seat.* finally, she believed. she thought that the guys in our class are lying, in the fact they aren't. poor them.
thats not the worst thing. she thought that it was OUR CLASS IMAGINARY FRIEND. congratulations. we are going into mental hospital! is like we are 15 year old teenagers, do you think we would be so stupid to have an imaginary friend?!
i got pissed off by her. she went around to check everyone's pencil box. under my cover for the table, there is postcards*acts as an decoration*, and is non-related to chemistry. and not only me puts it =.= she even took out to check? lame her. come on, bernita's even has her idol face there. cant i just put a few postcards? she asked me and i replied, cannot mehs, since it isn't related to any subject =.= she has nothing to say and walked off.
hopefully she doesn't come to our class again.
p.s. is the first time i showed a pissed off face to a teacher. i am daring. hahas
Labels: rants, school, teachers in school
Wednesday, April 30, 2008'♥
last day of april.
i just noticed a lot people mistook that the last picture 'post on 29 April 2008' was a sunset. in the actual fact is a sun RISE. is a phenomenon.
i guess i am too stress lately. is like the exams are about to commence in 2 days time, yet i don't have the feeling of urgency. ARGH! what's wrong with me!
mainly a lot people is feeling stress too. i just got so pissed during the chemistry today, until i uttered something that i had never said before. officially, i hate the mole equation calculation.
today had a pre-test of the music paper. and wonderfully i got 35/60! i failed the first 2 sections. thats why. and i don't really bother. today music performance was pretty well done. i still played from memory. i deserved a pat on my shoulder.
good news, tomorrow is labor day. no school. and pearl's birthday(:
bad news, next day, english and music test. and also my knee is hurting badly for no reasons.
lastly, thanks for all the concern.
i am just being so moody,
cooling down at the corner,
it might take longer to recover,
but i will be back to myself.
i promised.
if i really need it,
i will say it.
Labels: random, rants
Wednesday, April 09, 2008'♥
i think i screwed up quite a lot of stuffs. i really meant it, a lot.
1. in today's rehearsal.
2. my homework
3. my life.
4. time to sleep.
today's rehearsali kind of lost touch in dance as didn't dance for the two practices before the rehearsal. and didn't have time to run through the pieces before the full dress rehearsal run through downstairs. which lead me to having some hesitation. partly due to my back sprain, i did the movements seemed to slow by half a count. and the last piece, i tried to do an additional spilt which was added by teacher yesterday. and i couldn't balance myself =.= totally is my fault.
my homeworki am handing homework quite late rather than being punctual or overdue for like 1 day. if this continue on, i might just fail my mid years as well. something must be done.
my lifei am turning myself upside down.. been thinking of some stuffs lately. i think it really affected me. if i tried to voice, mainly people will just.. perhaps think XXXXXXX. is just random Xs.
kind of losing myself to this whole world. i shall try to get a grip of my life before it gone to the worst.
time to sleepi been sleeping late as i need to rush up all the bloody homework. and doing revision and stuffs. most importantly, practicing the piano. for once i am so enthusiastic to practice it. perhaps is because of the upcoming music performance critique on friday.
(Back-track a little.
Physics on monday was fun. Mr Goh taught pressure. Then he was trying to tell us about air pressure and the funny conversation went -
Mr Goh: So class, what is above us? Don't say is the ceiling okay.
Me: Sky
Mr Goh: Okay, sky. What is in the sky?
Some people: CLOUDS!
Mr Goh (kinda laughing and giving that kind of -.- face): Okay, what else?
Some people: Erm, birds! Aeroplanes! Helicopter... etc
(they start listing all the flying objects)
Mr Goh: Haiyo, what is in the sky which you cannot see? [apparantly he was looking for the answer air]
Some people: Atmosphere!
Finally of course we answered him air as we simply had no other answers to avoid it.)
credit to geraldine.
add on what the conversation, mr goh also described himself as macho with V - shaped like body but 2 bulging fats at the sides( waist). and he took airplane more than 10 times. and said that he used to be a swimmer. and of course, mr goh laughters are very funny. he started like:
ha ha, ha ha ha, *his face turning red* ha ha ha ha, *eventually, exaggerating laughs from him*
well, looking forward to his lessons.
schedule:
thursday:
Chemistry pop quiz is being cancelled.
Elective History test. double essays =.= hopefully get my facts right.
friday: a maths test.
english speech class test?
saturday: report school at 11am until 10pm due to the concert
sunday: the usual stuff
monday: most likely having physic test
tuesday: chemistry test
so far i could only recall till here.
Labels: random, rants, school
