Friday, March 06, 2009'♥
Common test is over, but it doesn't seemed to me that the sec4 are going to have a break.
i lost my direction. i am just a girl, standing in front of a crossed path. sun had set. darkness sets in. there is no light to guide me...
i questioned myself, "which way will be the right one? should i or should not?" there was no answer to my question.
Till this moment, i don't understand that why do we need to suffer our break nights for the examinations? just because of a sheet of white paper printing ABC or is just the greed and a sense of security to our future? Just because i am a Developing Country citizen, i have to take education, i have to follow the "conventional route", i have to force myself to "memorise the sutras", i have to "give up" a lot of things even though i wanted it. whichever route i take, it seems to be a grave mistake.
being a human is hard. just because we are humans,
we have conflicts.
we have our own ideas.
we have too many concerns.
now, i feel so cheated. cheated by the short lived hope, which caused me to fall from the Himalayas mountain to the bottomless pit. i did my best, hoping one day they will realise it. i pray. i pray for this moment of "hope" to ascend and ignite once again.
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