Tuesday, April 29, 2008'♥
a wonderful sun rise that i caught on my phone. for the first time it is red in colour. it doesn't seem to be lucky for me, although that red is a auspicious colour.
i seriously require a break. and sorry for not blogging
a huge big break.
but for a second thought, i slacked quite a lot.
everything didn't go well, even for my aesthetics section. everyone is like started mugging. well, i don't excatly mug yet. but doing those mid year2007 papers, trying to finish homework mood. simply, looking forward more of the holidays rather than examination [duh, everyone thinks that too] .
bad news, broke my electronic dictionary. screwed my a maths polynomial test. humiliated in physic class. it is just that everything seems to be opposing me. LACK OF MOTIVATION. utterly pissed. just don't care about me for a moment. [having mood swings]
feel like enclosed myself in the room, resting away, throw every single book away, try jumping down from my house window, get out of my stupid life, ranting about random stuffs. even quit school. deep inside, i screamed until simply no words to even speak. is like this is not the usual me, of course i know. somehow, i need some cooling off period or even need someone to hear my rants. sometimes i just wished that someone lend me a helping hand, or even shoulder to let me have a big cry out.
i am just trying to frustrate out.. don't worry about me, i will soon recover. someday. i just have to find my usual self back.
i want a shoulder for me to lean on,
a pat to encourage me,
a listening ear to hear out,
a person who understands without saying much,
a helping hand to pull me up.
i just need the person.
i am tired, exhausted, going into depression. i won't be able to stand any longer. let me collapse.Labels: losing myself, random
