Thursday, March 27, 2008'♥
ruined. troubled.
lessons were mainly fine, did the chemistry test. mr lee didn't come to school again.
my class had 5 absentees. mental, physically, flu struck, fever monster, hospitalized.
everyone is going to be sick. partly the reasons are the changing of weather and overworked.
changing weather.the weather changes until so fast like from hot scorching sun to droplets of water. no doubt people are getting sick. our school uniform group were the worst of all, they still had to march despite that it was raining. but the white uniform for the guys are so nice(:
overworked.non stopping rehearsing. for example, we had dance from mon to wed, then thurs had a sudden rehearsal (WHICH IS TOTALLY POINTLESS). friday is the big day to celebrate our school anniversary. totally, i feel like getting over and done with.
my ballet teacher totally gave me an (unhappy) face. which totally caught me off guard. she totally knew that mental and physically i am tired. real tired. what else can i do? just continue dancing until she points my mistakes. not only my mistakes are making my day so unbearable but is also the way i danced. my teacher actually gave a sentence: "i don't even know what shall i do to you." seriously, i am very troubled. real troubled. of course as a student, my heart just dropped like a thud. at the end of class, of course she gave advices.. viewing from an angle whereby, i shouldn't get affected by the words. being pin point by teacher is better than no comments. i ought to be glad that she is trying to correct me.
somehow, i just can't stop thinking how to do it right before it gets really worst. real worst. soon or later, i am going to develop depression. D:
hopefully theres nothing wrong during the performance. finally, we had voiced out for what we all dancers really think. a change maybe a good idea. but also, we being put at risk.
so frustrated. shall not think so much.
bless jiamin for a quick recovery. and everyone continue to fight with stupid irritating virus.
Labels: dance, life, school
