Monday, November 05, 2007'♥
Saturday.
open house was damn boring. is like the whole canteen is only filled with our school students rather than parents. thats what i think. and i left the school early, because i have ballet class, and my ballet quoted this which i find it is meaningful."
DANCERS EARN THE LEAST, WORK THE MOST."which i find it is true. but i guess i still will walk this route.. and i left ballet class early because, i had piano class. but after that my teacher smsed me to change to monday 6pm. and that's how my Saturday ended. but during night time, hid under the blanket to talk to xuefang. hahas.
Sunday.
woke up like 12pm? then my mum started to nag. and i was almost late for my ice skating class at Jurong. it turned out quite well, i started jumping off again. luckily my dad quickly drive me there(: thanks dad. simply because my mum wants to go for facial.
Monday. today.
lame day. started off with dance. i am again all alone for the part. i still cannot really catch up the beat that given by the teacher partly because she changed my steps when i didn't even come for class[mind you i was sick]. i simply hatting the dance team days by days. just a develop this kind of feeling suddenly. in contrary, i don't have the feeling in Saturday's ballet classes, but i will simply feels lazy inside.
i hate myself. i hate myself for being so stupid. hate myself taking up so many classes. hate myself when i can't study well. hate myself for not able to listen people. hate myself for being alive in this world. is just a sudden hate of myself. there's more to come. i hate myself for studying in nanchiau. i hate myself for not going to some better primary school. i hate myself for not being talented enough.
Labels: dance, ice skating
