Friday, April 20, 2007'♥

today went to bishan stadium for the damn SHHK sports meet. nothing much to do. did my homework there. except art and history. BORING!~ and i am glad that next year we are not GOING THERE ANYMORE!!! i saw mr patrick low. one of the nsps teacher who now is in chongfu primary. and i saw him running the teachers' race. LOLS.

STRING ORCHESTRA GOT GOLD!!! CONGRATS!

another stress. chinese dance got GWH. SO got GOLD. Band and CO got SILVER. great what next? people including teachers chinese dancers and more of my classmates said that we must get GOLD or GWH. great. do you know is damn so hard to get it. it is just that i really won't achieve it. i know what you all gonna say after reading my blog post. dun keep looking at the negative side. well, i am gonna tell you, i want to look at the negative side of me, the unconfident of me while dancing.

i just had a emptiness feeling in my heart now. is like i have no confidence of doing my best. is just like, i may go collasped down on the ground anytime. while maybe even now. i am on the brim of mental breaking or depression. it might be offensive to people but i still want to say. i know alot people is encouraging us saying that we improved. indeed we improved. but not to the standard we want to score a GOLD or GWH. while sometimes, their words are always the same.. so is predictable. and i knew what would modern teacher say. not good at. not enough energy. what could i really do? i really feel like giving up as the days are nearing. i had never ever got this kind of feeling rushing through me. even P5 the dance SYF. i am confident enough to stand on the stage. but now i can tell you. this is my first time of being unconfident enough on my dance skills or performance. i am damn depressed by it. So please, if i at school had offended anyone please don't take it seriously i dun really mean too.

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